Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Happy New Years

Well I haven't updated in awhile and I hope everyone had a nice Christmas. The girls and I did. They got alot of presents and I got a $250 gift card to JCPenney and my sister got me a Coach bag that I've always wanted. The girls got to much for me to list everything. Anyways with New Years coming up I figured out my New Years resolution...I actually have two this year.

1. I need to lose weight. Seriously this has been said before but it is becoming a health issue. My back hurts A LOT. I can't stand for long and I can't even really play with Danielle alot. I need to sit with something behind my back almost every chance I get. So once Mike gets paid which will be tommorow I will be buying bottles of water, crystal light drink mix because I won't drink water plain. I'm also joining the gym here. It's only $30 bucks a month and Mike said it was ok so. My next resolution is....

2. If it doesn't make me happy or my kids happy then it ain't happen. You know the saying 'If momma ain't happy, no one is'. I'm sick of people taking advantage of me and making do shit that I do not want to do and then end up being unhappy and hating myself for letting it happen. So from now on if it doesn't make me or my kids happy and it does not benefit me or my kids in a positive way..It will never happen. My bitchy side will be showing alot now!! Anyways...bye!

Friday, December 19, 2008

Friday 5

What’s your favorite thing about the shoes you’re wearing (or the shoes you were most recently wearing)? They look cute with most of my outfits
What’s your favorite thing about the people you work with (or the people you go to school with)? I don't work and I don't go to school...I stay home with my two babies and I love this job...My favorite thing about them is that they are beautiful, sweet, fun and my little angels
What’s your favorite thing about the climate where you live? not a damn thing...I hate cold weather
What’s your favorite thing about Friday? My mom is off of work and I have another adult in the house to talk to
What’s your favorite thing about the year coming to an end?
A new year and a new start

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Plus Size Female?

UgggHHH I hate that I am now a plus size woman. I guess it happens when you have two kids back to back basically. I'm now a size 3x in shorts. Anything less is too tight on me and I'd like to breathe. My husband wants me to buy lingerie to wear for him when he comes home on leave. Nothing I found so far would fit. I need to find a lingerie site that has plus size clothes that look sexy as well.

Besides from that I haven't updated in a few days because my daughters are both sick. Well one is now..Alexandra has a stuffed nose and a slight cough. I have a humidifier in the room with them and she breathes better at night, which means we can all get some sleep. Oh does anyone watch The Bad Girls Club??? Isn't Sarah hot !!! Ya she is lol.

Sunday, December 14, 2008


Ok so my husband is deployed. He left back in July. So after a weeks being there I signed into his email real quick to look for a certain email and I found a pic of some girl he traded pics with. He denies it of course and then I talked to a girl in a chatroom that he spoke to and he denies that also. So tonight I figured I'd go in the chatroom and see if anyone recognized his screenname...Before I continue, I told Mike I was going to see if someone knew him in chatrooms to prove I wasn't crazy..He made mr promise not do it. So anyways I did it and a guy said ya I know that screenname he is in here all the time..Here is the rest of the convo....

Asoldierswife347: when was this
Asoldierswife347: and r u serious
service limits: I am serious.
service limits: I see him in there all the time.
Asoldierswife347: when was the last time
Asoldierswife347: he is in iraq right now and he has traded pics with some girl before but he denies it
service limits: I'm thinking a few days ago.....I would have to go look at my chat logs.
service limits: If he denies it, why don't you just believe him?
service limits: Are you checking his mail?
Asoldierswife347: no
Asoldierswife347: one girl told me they chatted but they talked about me and he denies its true
service limits: Who was the girl?
Asoldierswife347: was he really in here
Asoldierswife347: i dont remember it was months ago
service limits: YES. He was!
Asoldierswife347: around what times is he usually on if u remember
Asoldierswife347: he was hitting on some mgirl?
Asoldierswife347: girl
service limits: He was...it was later in the evening....I'm usually on here in the evenings.
Asoldierswife347: what was he saying to her
service limits: Just talking about his deployment and stuff.....and how he wishes there were more women there then the one's he has to hang out with.
Asoldierswife347: what he told me he doesnt have girls there
service limits: Not what he said here.... I don't know.....
service limits: You might as well just start cheating on him.....teach him a lesson.
Asoldierswife347: im not the cheating type
service limits: It's engrained in the human gene system.
service limits: Everyone is capable...and everyone is that type.
Asoldierswife347: we have two kids together
Asoldierswife347: i wouldnt do it
service limits: He's never said anything about being married or having kids.
Asoldierswife347: ya we got married nov 2006 and we have two kids
service limits: I'm sorry to hear that.
Asoldierswife347: has he said anything else about the girls over there in iraq
service limits: Just that he was bored with them.
Asoldierswife347: wow he told me there are girls there but not in his unti and he doesnt talk to them
service limits: Probably what I would have told you too
Asoldierswife347: thanx for your help

After that I wrote him an email showing him this conversation. He called me the next day and told me it wasn't him. So I went to talk to this guy again. Aol said there is no such screenname. So someone made up a screenname to fuck around with someone and got me. I'm the most gullible person you will ever meet so it was odd that he got me. I can't believe shit I hear or read anymore unless I see it with my own eyes.

Monday, December 8, 2008

My Daughters met Santa

Danielle could not get away fast enough lol

Blue Monday

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A Thought

When my husband left for Iraq I signed onto his aol and saw he traded pics with sone girl. I asked him about it and he denied it. He said it wasn't him. He still denies it till this day and yes I ask him all the time. He said its stupid to get upset about because it wasn't him. Ok if it wasn't you wouldn't you want to know who it was then? It almost destroyed his marriage and it seems like he doesn't care. I'd want to know who it was unless of course it was him. I know it was him and I don't get why he still denies it. It makes me more mad that he is lying about it.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Martinsville Xmas Parade '08

Every year for the past 6 yrs we won first place. This year we get second? WHAT!! Well next year we have to come harder and do better. Everyone copies us anyways. This years theme was Allstar Xmas. We did a disney allstar xmas.All disney characters we had to dress up as. Danielle was a fairy. I was ....I forgot who it was but it was from a Mickey Mouse movie..My stepfather and family own a tree business. They do landscaping and all that stuff. They decorate all the trucks and make floats. Pics are below from tonight.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

The Kisser

My new toy that I ordered:

The Kisser...It got 4 stars..Hey my husband is in Iraq..I need something lol..

Blog Banner

How the hell can I get a blog banner made? You know how some people have a banner linking to their blogs. How can I get one?

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Photo Post


I was reading an article about how divorce rate has increased in Army Marriages and it worried me. I know alot of military families are struggling because of the deployments they go through. Some people can not handle being away from a loved one for so long. I am one of those people but I'm dealing with it. I do have mood swings that I need to try and control. My husband is annoyed because everytime he calls I'm yelling at him for something stupid. Deployments are extremely stressful but I have to remember he isn't having a grand old time. I hate that he isn't here for Christmas. Danielle asks for him every morning. It's hard to explain to an 18 month old where daddy is and that he is coming home soon. I swear sometimes I hate the Army Life.

Friday, November 28, 2008


My cousin Mike and I:

Well I hope everyones Thanksgiving was a good one. Mine wasn't bad at all. I got a few cute photos of the girls. I didn't get a good one for a Christmas card though. Friday I'm bringing them to the mall to get pictures with santa. That will have to do. I have a new hobby now.....Scrapbooking...It looks like alot of fun. I'm making one for my husband for when he returns home from Iraq. I'm taking pictures of his daughters while he was gone and making a scrapbook for him. Here are the pictures from yesterday.

Unconscious Mutterings

I say ... and you think ... ?

1. Sleepy :: tired
2. Thanksgiving :: stuffing
3. Fifteen :: years
4. Authority :: police
5. Bangs :: head
6. Curled :: toes
7. Young man :: stupid
8. Surprised :: present
9. Mistake :: steven
10. Handle it :: now

Wanna play along:

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Thanksgiving MeMe

I am thankful for my daughters. I'm thankful for my husband being safe even though he is in Iraq, I know he isn't in harms way. i'm thankful for my mom and stepfather letting me stay here while he is gone. I'm thankful I have a wonderful family who loves and cares for me and my children. I'm thankful that my daughter Alexandra came into this world safe and healthy even though the umbilical cord was around her neck 3 times. I'm thankful that the cord was really thick which is what kept her alive. I'm thankful to be alive and healthy as well.

Tuesday Toot

I'm guessing this weeks Toot is about asking for help or advice or whatnot. Well my daughter Danielle has been a handful lately. My husband deployed in July and I also gave birth to my second daughter in August. This is also for an 18 month old to understand. So i'm sure she is acting out because of these 2 major changes in her life already. I do not care what other people say about her being too young to understand. She does understand!! She understands her daddy isn't here because she asks for him all the time. She does understand that there is another baby in the house. She throws things, screams all the time, throws temper tantrums when she does not get her way. She is not even 2 yrs old yet. She also will not give up the pacifier. I take it away she screams and has a fit. Any advice on what to do would be helpful.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

My Meez

Meez 3D avatar avatars games

I love this one...so cute..


We took the girls to the park today. They had not been out of the house in awhile. Danielle had fun at the park. She is getting a cold but it's fine. Mike called and of course I missed it, so now he is mad he didn't get to talk to me today. The guy does not give me a chance to miss him. He calls everyday. I don't mind that but when we don't speak to each other he gets mad. Why?? I don't have a clue..Anyways photos below.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Jealous or not??

Well he brought this all upon himself. When we got married and moved down to OK I was 4 months pregnant at the time. I was on his laptop and found sex sites he signed up for. Of course he swears up and down it wasn't him. Ok so a year goes by and I'm pregnant again with Alexandra..This happened before a month after he went to Iraq. I went to the library because we didn't have internet access at the time. I went online at the library and checked his email and found out that he traded pics with some girl. She had just sent him her pic 5 minutes before I signed on. Of course once again swears up and down it wasn't him. Ok..so now I watch everything he does..I check his email, i check his myspace, facebook and whatever else he has..He also told me he bought a new laptop but he refuses to send me his old one. Now I think he is hiding something and now I really want that laptop. Am I just being a jealous bitch and let it go or do you think I have reason to be?

If My husband cheated...

What would you do if you found out that your partner cheats on you?

I would probably be extremely upset. He not only would be hurting me but he would also be hurting his kids. I would pack up and leave of course. It would take me alot to forgive him and I probably never would. To me something like that is unforgivable.

Thursday, November 20, 2008



1. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries.

2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.

3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of three.

4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.

5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.

6. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.

7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen.

8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.

10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.

11. You're reading this and nodding and laughing.

12. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this

13. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.

14. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on this list.

AND NOW U R LAUGHING at yourself.
And Yes, I was laughing and I did scroll back to see that there wasn't a #9!

Did you?


Danielle helped my mom cook dinner:

She is such a cutie.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Anonymous Mom

What was your initial reaction when you discovered you were pregnant for the first time?

I was scared at first. I wanted a baby for the longest time but it was never right. I was happy but then worried about how Mike was going to feel about it.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tuesday Toot

What have I accomplished? Well I'm married now with 2 kids..Ya I know..For those who know me well know that this is surprising for me. I have two beautiful baby girls and I'm actually a very good mommy, if I do say so myself. I struggled a little with Danielle but I was alone in OK. All my family is in NY and VA so for the first year of Danielles life I was alone. My husband was there but he worked alot so it kind of was like being alone. That's my greatest accomplishment....being a mommy!

If a Man Wants You...and other pearls of wisdom

Stolen from Bad Girls Guide

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away...
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be
Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has
more education or in a better job.. Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow/steal someone else's man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships....there is nothing cute about
baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists
of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others..

Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another
RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate
them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

Pass this on woman and men.



Am I wrong to yell at my husband who is in Iraq right now for giving someone a photo of me (right after having a csection), his mom, my sister and Alexandra to put in a newsletter that everyone in his unit including family members will see???Ya ok I may have overreacted but it's a horrible photo of me. I want it removed but it's probably to late now..

Monday, November 17, 2008

What a pyscho

Well you all know my husband is deployed..When he deployed I was 8 months pregnant. I went back to NY because his mom said I can stay with her until he came home or I went to stay with my mom...whichever came first..Well she has a violent drunk boyfriend who lives there also. It is actually his apartment. Well one night we were packing to go somewhere and I dumped his alcohol down the drain...to make a long story short he threw me and my 2 daughters out..We are now in VA and I got a call from my husbands grandma telling me that Mikes mom said I wasn't supposed to stay with her long at all. The plan was I was supposed to get a job right away and get an apartment...UHHHH YA NO!!!That's not what I was told even so who the hell is going to hire an 8 month pregnant woman..This woman is on my last nerve right now..I can't deal with her..She is becoming Monster In Law!!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

When SAHMone Speaks #17

Does your partner remember important dates such as anniversaries and birthday or do you keep a calendar to remind him? My husband is actually the one who remembers everything. My memory is so bad that I would need a calender to follow everything. But then again knowing me, I'd lose the calender somehow lol.

Want to do one also:

Friday, November 14, 2008


Mike gets 1300 the 1st and 15th of every month. This month he bought a new laptop because his old one crashed. We now have 780.oo until the 1st which is fine. I have to buy diapers and have the brakes in the car fixed and get an oil change and get xmas presents. His mom had the nerve to write him an email asking to borrrow $500 to hae a wisdom tooth taken out..Is she serious? She is about 45 yrs old, never held a job in her life for long at all. We have two kids to take care and struggle with 1300 twice a month. Ok we don't have any bills right now but still..If he gives her this money that leaves me with a little over 200 until he gets paid again so after paying everything for the car and diapers, there will be no money left for xmas. Fuck that!She is not doing that to my kids. Plus the fact she has all false teeth..How the hell is she getting a wisdom tooth. This woman drives me insane..He better not give her any money otherwise it will be over. His kids come first and xmas is approaching..

Thursday, November 13, 2008

What A Day!!

Danielle and Alexandra were nightmares today. It rained all day and usually they get cranky when the weather is bad. They got that from me. I hate when it rains. Anyways Danielles little problem is getting better. She lets me change her diaper now without a fight. She went to take her nap a little earlier then usual today. As soon as she layed down Alexandra woke up. She didn't sleep much at all today. She is not even 3 months old. I know they start to stay up more now but all day? That seemed weird to me. I found Danielle sitting with the dog in his dogbed. Of course I had to take a picture:

She is too freaking cute..I'll add more pictures of everyone later..

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Wednesday Mind Hump - November 12th

1. What's your least favorite fruit? Apples..They aren't that great..I don't think anyways
2. Middle initial? E
3. Favorite room of your home, and why? Right now itss the den..I'm staying with my mom and she has a den kind of connecting to the kitchen..That's where I watch tv and go online at night when my daughters are sleeping
4. Would you line dry your clothes if you had the option, instead of machine drying them? (Not talking about a drying rack, but an actual outside clothesline) Oh no...I need an actual dryer..I'm sure my clothes would get all wrinkly on a clothes line
5. You're working on a craft project with kids. Glue stick or liquid glue? Either one...maybe stick because it wouldn't make a mess
6. Do you think your handwriting fits your personality? Definitly...my handwriting is neat and no one can read it..I'm a neat freak and alot of people have said they can't understand me.


We had to bring Danielle to the hospital last night. The past 3 nights she has been screaming and jumping out of the bathtub. We checked her and her vagina was red and sore. I assumed she had a diaper rash so I put desitin on her and put her to bed. 3 hours later she woke up screaming, it was more red then it was before. So we took her to the hospital and the doctor said she has a fungal infection..Poor thing!! He gave us cream for it and told us to avoid baths for a few days and just sponge her down. I don't get how that happened. I feel so bad for her. At least now I know why she has been waking up in the middle of the night crying..

Monday, November 10, 2008


I joined this site called myLot User Profile and I added my name to the blog directory. It says I had to add a post about it to verify my blog. It seems like a cool site. You earn money on it somehow..I'm new to it and learning as I go along. So join and we can check it out together..

I can't fucking believe it

Well I stayed with Mikes mom for a few weeks right after he deployed. I had turned the cable, internet and phone on there in my name because I needed a phone as well since I had 2 babies in the house. I was thrown out of there because of something stupid and came to VA to stay with my mom with my two daughters. Once I got here I called cablevision to have everything turned off in my name. They told me I had to return the equipment myself. I told them what happened that I was thrown out and I'm now in VA until April. The guy told me they would send someone over to the apartment to pick up the equipment but someone had to be home. I said ok thats fine. Well today I get a bill for $858.03 for the equipment..Ya I'm not fucking paying that. I guess she never answered the door when the guy came to pick everything up. Well I'm sending my sister over there tommorow to get it. My sister hates that lady so she will have fun.

Alexandras 2 month checkup

Everything is good. She is now 11 lbs and 7 ounces. She is 22 inches long. She got 4 shots, two in one leg and 1 in the other and some liquid shot in the mouth. The doctor said she can have cereal twice a day and starting this week I can start giving her fruits. Next month she can start vegetables and in December she can have meats..That's it for now.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Very Sad

I'm on this forum: http://www.militarysos.com/ and some girl posted about how they are now putting a limit on how much foodstamps you can recieve. I think it is very sad that military people are even on food stamps. You would think they would pay them enough so they can support thier families and be able to put food on the table. They defend the country and our freedom and yet don't make enough to provide for thier families...Very sad!!

Alexandra Marie

She was born August 20th 2008 at 12:04 PM. She was a c-section. The umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck 3 times but thankfully she is ok. We are home now and we are both doing great.